Tayler's Here!!!

YAYYYYYYYY!!!!

After an amazing time in DC, where I reunited with people I love, and then fell in love with new people, I am back in FM, with Tayler, who after 48 hours of travel is officially in the U.S. of A. This is the last week I have until I have to start being a "temporary grown-up" so I am making the most of it: journey to g-vegas, possible Busch Gardens adventure, and a free trip to Key West!!!! Sure to be an amazing time. I can't wait!

i can feel my willpower crumbling beneath my feet.

What do you do when you know something is bad for you, and you shouldn't allow that thing into your life, but every ounce of your body and soul is pushing you toward it anyhow? What do you do when the struggle to keep that thing out brings tears to your eyes and sweat to your brow and pain to your heart? What do you do?

Well me, I run to a new place. Later today, I go on a mini-vacay to Washington D.C. It's just what I need, exactly when I need it. Hopefully by the end of the week I'll be over the hump and ready to push forward with my detox sans relapse. Then It'll be back to the grind, and back on track, whatever that is. I guess I should figure that out first.

Le sigh...

Using my hands

I wanted to make a brilliant book all about the exciting creatures you find in the waters around Koh Tao, complete with watercolor drawings and fun facts. It was going to be a present for someone who is no longer in my life, and although I know I should forget about it, I really want to continue making it. For him? For me? I dont know. But the whole idea was so exciting and really made me happy. I was compiling research for my fun facts, and bought the materials to make the actual book. It was going to be a teaching aid for the Underwater Naturalist specialty of the advanced course. And I was going to mail it around the world, and everyone would be jealous of it. And the students would love it.

I'm still going to make it, i think. although obviously not for the original recipient. I might keep the original and maybe make copies for other people i like there. That might be a good plan. It's going to be awesome, regardless. And it'll keep my hands and mind busy for a little while.

In the meantime i'm planning the next big adventure. Step 1: make money and pay off all my debt. I hate owing people money, even the credit card people. So. I'll take care of that first and foremost. and then save save save. I've got until August or so. And then on to Europe! Back on track! Wahooooo!

help!

i need some guidance. what do i do next? where do i go from here?