i can feel my willpower crumbling beneath my feet.

What do you do when you know something is bad for you, and you shouldn't allow that thing into your life, but every ounce of your body and soul is pushing you toward it anyhow? What do you do when the struggle to keep that thing out brings tears to your eyes and sweat to your brow and pain to your heart? What do you do?

Well me, I run to a new place. Later today, I go on a mini-vacay to Washington D.C. It's just what I need, exactly when I need it. Hopefully by the end of the week I'll be over the hump and ready to push forward with my detox sans relapse. Then It'll be back to the grind, and back on track, whatever that is. I guess I should figure that out first.

Le sigh...