i'm okay....

but there's a lump in my throat and a hole in my heart. and my head is still spinning.

i'll tell you what you've missed....

i went diving on thursday with my roommates. it was a lot of fun and we had two good dives. but coming up on my second dive was pretty scary. I was only a few meters from the surface and i got really bad vertigo. Everything was spinning around me and i thought i was spinning too and closing my eyes didnt help and i was really worried. Then i looked at my depth gauge and realized i was only a meter from the surface so i popped up and was fine. But it was really scary at the time. What if that were to happen deeper? What if i had students with me at the time? What would i do then? Ride it out? what if the spinning didnt stop? What then?

Saturday and Sunday i worked (yes, i now have a job). I was the deck supervisor, helping divers and snorkelers in and out of the water. it was alright, up until i slipped on the deck and landed on my jaw. somehow i managed not to shed any blood, although my chin hurts like a mother when i touch it even lightly. As a reward they let me take two intro divers out, and i got to put my name on their certificates. Whoo!

today i slept and tomorrow's my dad's birthday. tomorrow i also buy a new phone. for real this time. sigh.

a dive instructor with no job is a graphic designer

since i have no job i decided to design dive log pages. here are my new dive log pages:



i like 'em!! i also have a matching stamp with my instructor number, with the mermaid. I'm branding myself! you like?

i got offered a job, but i'm not sure that i want it. for now i'm going to take it, but we'll see how it goes.

God i want pinkberry.

Passed!

I am a dive instructor. Now all i need is a massive dive watch to prove it....

and maybe a job too.

yawn.

i'm so sleepy, but i dont want to sleep. thinking maybe i should go out? not sure. i have my class tomorrow and i'm not going to be able to go out for a while. so i was thinking maybe i should go and dance a little bit. no drinking. but it's me, so i'll probably just go to bed. what a loser. oh well.

i love money

and i just found a lot of it! and now i have immensely less anxiety.

just in time to start my instructor course. tomorrow. eek!